Hey Everyone!
I know it has been a very long time since my last post but a lot has been going on in my life and I finally have a minute to breathe. One of my greatest accomplishments since I have been away is getting Lyme Branch up and running. So if you haven’t checked it out, go check it out now @ www.LymeBranch.org!
Lyme Branch also had its first event at the Drafthouse Cinema in Austin, TX. We had a great turn out for our first event and the live music by Matt Cline ROCKED!
I am currently working on more events to come this summer for Lyme Branch. So far we will more than likely have a kayak tournament in Louisiana and an event in our hometown of Mansfield, TX this summer.
As for my treatments it has been a bumpy road with many ups and downs. I have been steadily declining since Nov of last year and I have about bottomed out. Been very weak and tired for the last few months with it only getting extremely worse this last month. Doc has pulled out all the stops and is trying to keep me out of the hospital and get me back on track. I have also been seeing a pain management doc to get the pain under control (that is a HUGE blessing)! The pain has become relentless in the last few months and with each new week it gets stronger and stronger. I have a pain patch and a topical cream that I use now and so far so good. Doc has also got me back to sleeping with some heavy sedatives. I can’t tell you what a world of difference getting some sleep has done for me! I have also been doing a liver flush and detox baths to keep the toxins at a low.
I go back in a few weeks with Kim and our new Lymie friend D. Hoping that it turns out to be a great visit all the way around.
I will try to post more frequently again and I will defiantly keep everyone posted on how I am doing.
Thank you everyone for all of your support, it means the world to me!
Some pics from last post to now, ENJOY!
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Astrid’s Meet & Greet
So we had a little party for Ms. Astrid (Kim) to meet the whole gang before she had to leave us. Quite an adventure with my closest friends and family. It is all laughs and hugs at our little backyard shin-digs. Here is a peek inside….OPA!!!!
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Don’t forget to check out Astrid’s blog to: http://rocasvida.com/
Path To The Light…
Curveball
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Emotion Coaster
So, I never thought I would wake up feeling the way I did today. It has been a challenging day already and it is not even NOON!! My mind is all over the place. My emotions raging through me like a bat out of hell. My hands shaking so bad today that I can hardly hold a cup to drink. My body trembling and spasms all over. The ticks have taken over for sure today!
I felt somewhat accomplished today that I got to inform a sweet lady from CarePoint named Patty about Lyme Disease and what it involves. This woman lives where Lyme originated and did not know hardly anything about it….that is just sad to me. It angers me that people and doctors are not educated on this ever growing epidemic.
This is the first time I have felt this extreme of symptoms at one time. I guess this is the IV antibiotics doing their job finally. Ironically this is a good thing, not a bad thing. Feeling worse means that it is drawling the bacteria to my bloodstream so it can break it up and kill it off.
For the last few weeks have slept so much that the days just seemed to be meshed all together. Getting up to do something was such a task or just trying to “think” was such an effort it wore me out. My parents were a great help being here to pick up my slack but now they are gone and hubby is back at work again and its all on me again. This is a challenge as I know I am only going to get worse and I do not know where that leaves me being able to care for my kids and my family. Its alot to ponder and yall have a front row seat to this soap opera. Thanks to two very sweet women in my life my day is brightening up. I am blessed to have them to call or text for whatever I need. Even though one is over 500 miles away and the other is just around the corner, they are always there for me and I am forever grateful. So a big shout out to the both of you, I love yall so much! Thank you both for being such great friends to me.
Till next time……
Amanda |
Reality of Treatment & More
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Medical Update
Here is part two of this big update. Sorry it took so long…the ticks took over 😉
I spoke before about a man that I met waiting to see the doctor. I have since become friends with him and we talk frequently now to help each other through this journey. I have made a friend for life and I couldn’t be more grateful that God has brought us together, to help us stay motivated and to fight for life.
I truly meant that it was a day of blessings. I left with orders for IV medication and for the first time hope for the future. On the way home all I could focus on was the reality that maybe one day I would be blessed with a “normal” life. A life free of physical pain and mental anguish.
The next two weeks were very challenging for me. I went on a search for a surgeon to place the port-a-cath and a home health company to take over my care. Through recommendations I found the best surgeon in my area. After my consultation we were a go for surgery. It was really nice for the first time to have a doctor not question my disease and just say “let’s do this and get you better”!
I had my orders to do my pre-op workup and a date set for the out patient surgery. Mixed emotions flowed through me. It is very overwhelming but invigorating to finally be on the right path. During my pre-op another amazing thing happened to me. I was going in the room for my chest x-ray and the tech asked me if I minded talking to someone for a moment. Without hesitation I obliged. A beautiful woman came in that I could tell right away was ill just by the look on her face. She introduced herself and asked me about Lyme disease. She to had been diagnosed with Lyme and was there doing blood work for her visit to my wonderful doctor. I eased her worries by reassuring her that our doctor was the best and he would get us healthy again. I explained all the process and tried to help her all I could. I gave her all my information so she could contact me anytime she needed. Again, Gods plan brought two people together that needed each other in that very moment. I say this because a series of events had to happen so that we could meet at that exact moment in time.
My Dad accompanied me to the hospital and got me all checked in. It was excruciating waiting to go back but the staff at this hospital were all so kind and made me feel so safe. It was great they could ease my anxiety without any medication at all.
After the surgery my Dad brought me to the infusion center to get my first infusion treatment.Then it was time for home to recover from the surgery.
The day after the stitches were removed it was finally time to access the power port. Let me tell you I did not expect it to hurt the way it did. I was in agony because my nurse tried like ten times to access it and couldn’t. Every stick with this mosquito looking thing sent me on a rage inside. I am very good at hiding my pain and I was having a hard time keeping composure. I am not sure if it was her not being experienced enough or I was just being a baby. I do know it is the oddest feeling to have someone stick a needle into a void in your chest to drawl back and you can feel a burn and pressure like your chest is going to implode. She stopped after about the fifth try and said “why don’t you take a couple of pain pills and let them kick in before I try again”! I am sorry NO ONE wants to hear a nurse say that! To say the least she could not do it and called for backup. A few hours later she returned with another nurse (more experienced) and she accessed it on the first shot and I didn’t feel it at all!
So with the port accessed and all my supplies delivered, it began. A new chapter in my journey.
Until next time my friends…
~Amanda
Thursday – Sunday Ceftriaxone Eclipse Infusion 2x/day
My list of pill form is in the pictures.
The Holidays
This was the first Christmas that me or the kids have ever spent away from my side of the family and it was very strange. It is just to much for me to travel at the current time so it was a Christmas in Louisiana this year!
It was hard on everyone not to spend the holidays with my family so we tried to make this Christmas a special one for the kids. We also did this in part because for some of my hubby’s side of the family it may be their last. Christmas Eve we had dinner at Granny Sue’s house and exchanged gifts. Everyone had a great night and Maw Maw topped it off by letting everyone in on her “Senior Year” of high school and her college plans. If you can’t guess my husbands Grandmother has dementia. For any of you that do not know what dementia is, here is a link to explain it all. http://www.alz.org/what-is-dementia.asp
The evening winded down and it was a mad rush to beat Santa to the house. Kids had a secret sleepover in big sisters room so Santa could deliver their big gifts. Hubby and I spent quite some time zoning out to Pink Floyd putting together desks & chairs. End result was a good one…no leftover parts!
Look out 2014 here I come!!
~Amanda
Stay Strong
Yesterday I returned for my 6 week checkup after being diagnosed with Acute & Chronic Lyme Disease. I love that my doctor takes his time with me and listens carefully to everything I say so that he knows how to treat me best. This is something that I am not used to, as I am used to doctors calling me crazy lol.
After being on all the medications for six weeks it has taken its toll on my body and my stomach. It has come to our attention that my pill intake has to be cut drastically down so that my stomach will calm down. The decision to start IV medications was made yesterday. I will now be taking my antibiotics by IV and only a small few by pill form.
This is a huge step in progress for me. I desperately want to get better fast, but I know that I will get worse before I get better. It is just part of the process of killing this off and ALL the co-infections that I am plagued with. After going over all of the lab tests and symptoms it is clear how sick I really am and you would never know by looking at me. I can not stress enough how debilitating this disease is and how great it is at masking it all. I hate the famous line “well you don’t look sick”. That line makes me want to vomit and explode on someone.
I met a man from Arkansas while I was there and he was new to all this but had been suffering for about three years. We talked and talked about all the things that needed to be done and how great our doctor is and how effective his treatment plan is. He shared a little secret that most of us with an invisible illness don’t talk about alot to other people. He mentioned that his wife was having a hard time accepting all this that he felt like no one believes him.
We have all been there. I have talked about it before how being this sick for so long can take its toll on any relationship. I feel like I have been a burden all these years. That nothing I was ever doing was ever good enough because I was not at my best. It has strained many relationships in my life including my marriage. It is an awful feeling knowing that you are not always pulling your weight and causing that person to pick up the slack. It is alot of pressure for someone. Overall, these people just don’t understand that we don’t want it this way, we want our lives back to whatever “normal” is or was.
I wish that everyone this disease and many others like it could come with an instruction manual for all the people in your life, especially your spouses. Maybe then it would not be so hard for them to accept. Maybe they could start to understand that we did not ask for this nor did we want it. It is, what it is….deal with it! If you truly love that person you should give that courtesy of believing them even if you can’t feel or see it for yourself. It takes a whole other level of commitment and love to move through the treatment of this disease. I hope that for most of you out there that you have a spouse and family that love you and are with you every step of the way. But for most I know you are in the same boat as I am, they can’t take it. They up and move on without you, never wanting to see you better and normal for the first time. I have listened to many people that are back to “normal” now that say those people try to step back in your life after it is all over with. This pains me greatly. What makes them think you would want them back in your life if they can’t tough it out with you through the tough times. To me that shows a lack of character and commitment. There is no love there, it is a selfish relationship. Those people need to be purged from your life so a new and positive place opens up in your heart.
Ok enough of my side rant! To say the least here I am excited that my treatment is going in this direction because I know I will start to get better faster than I would on the pills. I will still be sick for a long time but there is an end in sight. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. I maybe crawling there but I will get there, I can promise you that! I have great friends and a community of people like me all cheering me on, like I cheer for them. I will keep everyone posted!
I have to keep telling myself over and over again, this to will pass. You will come out stronger on the other side. People in your life that are not worthy will move on and true happiness awaits you on the other side. It will be a long bumpy road but you will get there one day. Keep your head held high and your emotions close because this is the ride of your life.
Stay Strong & Surround Yourself With People Who Love You!
Treatment
Well it has been over a week on treatment and I am doing fairly well with the meds. I have started to loose the swelling all over my body and my stomach is on the mend from the inside. Friday-Sunday are my weakest days all because of one antibiotic I take only on the weekends (Flagyl).
I started a new round of Flagyl today so we will see if this round goes like the last one or intensifies symptoms. It has been difficult to write on my blog as my brain is just not up to par for putting my thoughts to words.
My spirit is still hopeful and I know I have a long way to go but I am optimistic that it will all be for the better in the end!
I came across this today on Yolanda Foster from the Real Housewives of Beverly Hills. She also has chronic lyme’s disease.
http://radaronline.com/exclusives/2013/11/yolanda-foster-real-housewives-beverly-hills-blog-lyme-disease-struggles-shell-woman-used-to-be/
http://radaronline.com/exclusives/2013/04/yolanda-foster-lyme-disease-video/
http://radaronline.com/exclusives/2013/01/yolanda-foster-lyme-disease-real-housewives-of-beverly-hills-video/
http://mandaswords.weebly.com/1/post/2013/11/treatment.html